Wednesday, December 31, 2008

"...I want to change the world, instead I sleep..."

I haven't made a New Years' resolution in like, a severely long time. For the most part, I believe that if you want to achieve something you shouldn't wait for the calendar to change over to a new year to start working towards that goal.

That being said, I'm making a serious resolution this year.

I'm going to start running again. Serious. Running. Ready for a 10K by summer running.


Ever since my hip flexor injury in the summer of 2006, my exercise routine has gone through serious changes. I couldn't run anymore, so I did physical therapy for 3 months, worked with a personal trainer until summer 2007, got back into the swing of working out on my own for about 8 months and then just totally fell off the exercise wagon in February 2008 when I got a new job.
To throw more non-motivation into the mix, I'm now in a relationship. And anyone will tell you that a new relationship can and often does derail good habits.

That being said, I miss working out and I miss running. I miss that time to myself. No cell phone, no talking. Just me, the pavement and my iPod. It's a travesty that I got a new pair of running shoes 3 months ago and they're still brand new.

That will change. Tomorrow.

Happy New Year!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

"...are we human or are we dancers?..."

I've never really been a fan of New Years'. It's always been kinda depressing, I think.

This year, for the first time ever really, I'll have a significant other to share my evening with. He pretty much shares my mindset when it comes to New Years' too. Loud drunken party? No thanks. Loud, smokey, drunken bar scene? No and no.

Quiet homemade dinner with my guy then maybe drinks at a friends' house afterwards? Sounds nice.

::PT's evil "mushy girlfriend side" is coming out. Here be monsters::

Call me lame, but the thought of having a quiet, peaceful, snuggly New Years' makes me want to get up and dance around in happiness.

::PT beats back her evil "mushy girlfriend side," let's her "angry shopgirl side" come out to play::

And by the way, if one more person today tells me "I'm in a hurry. I need this done as soon as possible," I'm going to kill someone.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

"...Over and out she sang as the telephone rang..."

Christmas has, of course, come and gone too fast. But as far as Christmas goes, 2008 was an excellent one.

I seem to have gotten a touch of the flu and wasn't able to eat my weight in fancy holiday food, but even a bit of sickness wasn't enough to dampen things.

I'm extraordinarily lucky to have such an amazing family and boyfriend. And I'm doubly lucky to have been able to have four days off to spend with them during Christmas.

I've been trying to think of stories from Christmas that made me laugh. It might be the flu medicine I've been taking, but I can't point to any one thing in particular that made me smile on Christmas -- just a general sense of peace and happiness that lasted all day is the only thing I can report.

Some of the most entertaining bits happened the day after Christmas at Ma and Dad's house when we plugged in the new Wii they got Sara and I. Damn entertaining that Wii is...

In addition to the Wii, Sara and I also mutually received a wine cellar for our house.

As such, we've decided that we will now have WWF Wednesdays at our house... no, there won't be a staged wrestling match... It's Wino, Wii and Fondue Wednesday.

You're officially invited. :-)

Sunday, December 21, 2008

"... What a bright time it's the right time to rock the night away..."

Tonight is my company holiday party. I'm excited because I could use a little party time. And I get to wear a pretty new dress by Angel Rox, my favorite new designer. [I'll be wearing the Audrey dress. Check out all of the fabulous designs here:]

What better time to wear a new dress and wear sparkly makeup and bright red lipstick than a holiday party right? Who doesn't love being glammy?

As I putz around, waiting til I can start getting ready for the party, I'm watching the Garfield Christmas Special from the 80's. Thank you, YouTube.

Here is my Christmas gift to all of you, parts one, two and three. :-)

Thursday, December 18, 2008

"...Ooooo-oooo I can confess, I don't know what to make from all this mess..."


Life is messy. And sometimes I don't know how to react to things that happen. I'm sooooo not that "I'll be strong for you" person. I'm much more that "I'm here to cry with you" person.

I'm making an effort to be the strong one instead of the crying one.

That's all I've got.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

"... The tears are comin' down, they're mixin' with the rain..."

You know how somedays when you wake up in the morning, you kinda of get a feeling that things aren't really going to work out for you as the day progresses?

Yeah today is kinda like that for me.

Everyone is pissing me off. Everyone is making me emotional.
My bank account has exactly three dollars in it. I had to ask my parents to pay my student loans this month and I admitted to my mom that all I want for Christmas is money to pay January's bills.

Being an adult is hard. Working long hours and still not having enough money to live a moderately nice life sucks.

I feel so guilty now about that twenty dollar breakfast I bought for Sara and I at Eat 'n Park last Friday and very selfish for buying a $6 lunch yesterday.

It's hard to put into words how frustrated I am. So many people are "the working poor" these days.

Thank god I have a family and a boyfriend who dont care about presents and really only want to spend time with me for Christmas.

And I'm amazingly lucky to have understanding and supportive parents. I am 100% positive they went completely overboard on Christmas gifts like they do every year. And as I sit here, coming to terms with the fact that one week before Christmas I had to ask my mother to pay a bill for me, all I want to do is cry.

And at 8pm when I get off work and start my long, cold walk to my car, I will be doing just that.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

"...rain, feel it on my fingertips, hear it on my window pane..."

The other day, we had some crazy bad weather here in Pittsburgh. Cold, icy, snowy weather.

Jason had my car that day because his bike wouldn't start that morning. So he dropped me off at work and used my car to get to work and do his errands after he got off.

As the weather deteriorated and Walnut Street became a sheet of ice, I was so thankful that I didn't have to worry about driving home that night.

Around 5 when he got off work, Jason called. I was convinced he was going to tell me he got into an accident because of the roads.

The conversation transpired as such:

"When is the last time you got new windsheild wiper blades on your car?"


"Are you serious?"

"Yes. But in my defense, I've only owned that car since last summer."

"How long do you think wiper blades last?"

"I dunno, like five years?"

"I'm going to the auto parts store. I'll see you at 8."

Practical gifts make smile. And I have to say, these new windshield wipers work so much better than my old ones. Who knew that "car maintanence" isn't just putting gas in it?

Monday, December 8, 2008

"...sixteen tons, whaddya get, another day older and a-deeper in debt..."

The only thing I've had on the brain today is the economy.

This morning,'s lead story was "67% of consumers cutting back." Of course I can't find a link to the article anymore. But one of the scariest stats I've ever read was smack in the middle of the article: Three-quarters of people who responded to the poll that was conducted answered "yes" when asked if they've had to cut back on "grocery items, medicine and/or heating their home."

How fucking scary is that?

Almost as scary as this article: How to salvage your retirement.

I'm going to go home and drink some Bushmill's whiskey from my liquor cabinet... while I still have a home and a liquor cabinet to go to...

Sunday, December 7, 2008

"... so keep your love locked down, love locked down..."

I just got off of the phone with my mother. Apparently there is some drama brewing with the extended family about the holidays.

For a very long time when Sara and I were little, we didn't have big family get-togethers at Christmas. We just spent Christmas Eve and Christmas Day with ourselves for one reason or another. I always kinda missed big family gatherings.

A few years ago, my parents started having Christmas Day at their house. And the whole family came to our house. Sara and I loved it. And so did Ma and Dad.

Everyone knew and still knows that if they start anything, Dad will end it and we'll go back to "just the four of us" for Christmas again.

After hearing the drama that is afoot already, I have to say I think I may have had my fill of extended-family-togetherness for now.

I want peace. I want quiet. I want to be away from masses of people.

I'm raising my coffee mug and saying a prayer that Christmas is as lovely and peaceful as Thanksgiving was.

Here, here.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

"... And if it's written on my face, I hope it never goes away..."

Generally I'm not the type of person who gets all wound up and bent out of shape about new consumer products. New Apple computer/iPod/iPhone products and new types of mascara are the exceptions.

Over the weekend, I went to the evil Walmart for some mascara. In my endless mission to get the longest, fattest eyelashes on earth without having to wear false eyelashes, I rarely buy the same mascara more than once. I was completely hooked on L'Oreal Voluminous Carbon Black mascara with the curved brush for like, YEARS. Then this summer I up and decided to buy a $20 tube of Dior mascara which I loved, but since I go through a tube of mascara roughly every 3-4 weeks, it's a bit too pricey.

On to the next mascara... Maybelline Colossal Volum' Express. As far as cheap mascara goes, I have to say this one is my favorite. I never thought anything would edge out L'Oreal Voluminous but I think this one has. This mascara lasted a good four weeks for me...

... but like I said, this weekend it was time to buy a new tube. You'd think I'd stick with the Maybelline. But no. I read too many fashion magazines and have now learned about something called mascara "tubes" - the latest and greatest apparently being L'Oreal Double Extension Beauty Tubes. And I'm all wound up and excited about it. And naturally, the Walmart by my parents house is a total backwater and didn't have the goods.

So, naturally, rather than reinvesting in the Maybelline Colossal Volum' Express, I had to be a retard and buy something new that I hadn't researched. I bought Maybelline XXL Volume + Length. I willingly spend like a ridiculous amount of time on mascara application each day, but I really hate the whole "put this white conditioning coat on first and then do the black coat" two-step mascara crap. And that's what this stuff is. And it's crap. Crap! Too much work and not enough payoff.

Here's my evidence. At left, you can see the lashes are kinda stubby looking. At right, they do look a little longer, but not very full. Lame.

So what did I learn?

I learned I shouldn't get wound up about new mascaras and I shouldn't believe the hype, the marketing pitch and the claims on the package.

Total bummer.

I haven't decided if I'll use the whole tube or not... I'm very tempted to go back to my Colossal Volum' Express. I think I may have learned my lesson.